The Voice in the Head

Finally, The voice in the head could extort few minutes out of my packed schedule, invincible even after repeated dismissals. After hounding every type of role within for a while, it could finally get the ingenuous writer heed to it.

Sidelining the dramatized portrayal above, It took me a lot of time to convince myself that I need to write this. Amidst several pressures (some self created obviously, not trying to blame it all on circumstance) past few days have landed me in a mesh of thoughts which I am struggling to unentangle; left me trapped in a perpetual system of worry, denial and self-assurance. It has set me running back and forth through the corridors of self-criticality, where I am tiptoeing with fear and anxiety. Animating all possible scenarios which can happen in a world running on Murphy's law! A promising, almost-complete state of Rubik's cube which goes badly haywire in the end to align just few more squares. Was it more sensible to publish your results in the nearly-perfect state and make peace with your current capabilities, than to push yourself higher to strive for an all perfect Rubik's cube? The unsettling voice in the head doesn’t have an answer!

I am planning to end this writing here, since the flow of thoughts have ceased at this point and voice in the head has mellowed down. Also, I realize sometimes things are best left incomplete, open-ended. The way life strands us in middle of nowhere! Its no absolute law to end each write-up in a proper fashion, converging towards a mindful conclusion.

Concluding Thought : There was no powerful a tool than Retrospect, if only we had time machine!